dust thou art and to dust thou shall return

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday
http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/01775b.htm
http://www.drcm.org

Guys,

i am on HIATUS for 40 days
will ressurect on Easter Sunday

INSHA ALLAH !

VIVA LA DIFFERENCE

Check out the female brain very carefully before scrolling down to male brain!

-says SSB

Stop the world, i want to get off

"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately,
to front only the essential facts of life,

and see if I could not learn what it had to teach,
and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.

I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear;
nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary.

I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan- like as to put to rout all that was not life,

to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner,
and reduce it to its lowest terms,

and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world;

or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion."

Complete Text of Walden

a gamble: u have won Rs 5,30,000, wud u risk it all for another gamble?

Roopa is in the hot seat

She has just won Rs 5,30,000/-
She is given an alternate offer

walk away with this amount or continue gambling

she may loose it all in the next gamble and get a chloromint instead of walking away with this huge amount

she may win Rs 100,000,000/- or the mint

Roopa is a pavement dweller


DEAL or NO DEAL?
Roopa chose DEAL

'Yeh pal humme yaad ayengi' she says as she wipes a tear
'this moment i will remember for life'

Caraf Dances

RED ALERT IN INDIA
http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/world/20060220-1640-birdflu.html










CAUTION: The Times of India carried the pic above saying 'The Virus is not food borne and that eating chicken meat is safe'

This is a serious mistake
Infected chicken meat is safe provided that certain conditions are fulfilled during preparation.


read here

Avian influenza frequently asked questions
Is it safe to eat poultry and poultry products?
Yes, though certain precautions should be followed in countries currently experiencing outbreaks.

In areas free of the disease, poultry and poultry products can be prepared and consumed as usual (following good hygienic practices and proper cooking), with no fear of acquiring infection with the H5N1 virus.In areas experiencing outbreaks, poultry and poultry products can also be safely consumed provided these items are properly cooked and properly handled during food preparation.

The H5N1 virus is sensitive to heat. Normal temperatures used for cooking (70oC in all parts of the food) will kill the virus. Consumers need to be sure that all parts of the poultry are fully cooked (no “pink” parts) and that eggs, too, are properly cooked (no “runny” yolks).Consumers should also be aware of the risk of cross-contamination. Juices from raw poultry and poultry products should never be allowed, during food preparation, to touch or mix with items eaten raw.

When handling raw poultry or raw poultry products, persons involved in food preparation should wash their hands thoroughly and clean and disinfect surfaces in contact with the poultry products Soap and hot water are sufficient for this purpose.

In areas experiencing outbreaks in poultry, raw eggs should not be used in foods that will not be further heat-treated as, for example by cooking or baking.Avian influenza is not transmitted through cooked food. To date, no evidence indicates that anyone has become infected following the consumption of properly cooked poultry or poultry products, even when these foods were contaminated with the H5N1 virus.

Does the virus spread easily from birds to humans?No.
Though more than 100 human cases have occurred in the current outbreak, this is a small number compared with the huge number of birds affected and the numerous associated opportunities for human exposure, especially in areas where backyard flocks are common. It is not presently understood why some people, and not others, become infected following similar exposures.revised 5 December 2005

What is avian influenza?Which viruses cause highly pathogenic disease?Do migratory birds spread the disease?What is special about the current outbreaks in poultry?Which countries have been affected by outbreaks in poultry?What are the implications for human health?Where have human cases occurred?How do people become infected?Is it safe to eat poultry and poultry products?Does the virus spread easily from birds to humans?What about the pandemic risk? What changes are needed for H5N1 to become a pandemic virus?What is the significance of limited human-to-human transmission? How serious is the current pandemic risk?Are there any other causes for concern?Why are pandemics such dreaded events?What are the most important warning signals that a pandemic is about to start?What is the status of vaccine development and production?What drugs are available for treatment?Can a pandemic be prevented?What strategic actions are recommended by WHO?Is the world adequately prepared?What is avian influenza?Avian influenza, or “bird flu”, is a contagious disease of animals caused by viruses that normally infect only birds and, less commonly, pigs. Avian influenza viruses are highly species-specific, but have, on rare occasions, crossed the species barrier to infect humans.In domestic poultry, infection with avian influenza viruses causes two main forms of disease, distinguished by low and high extremes of virulence.

A Conspiracy?

http://dhans-diary.livejournal.com/17638.html?mode=reply

PREDATOR'S PLAY GROUND
in the last two weeks, detectives have tracked down two men whom they've charged with sexual assault of a minor. Both of the accused men found or conversed with their victims via the social-networking Web site MySpace.com, according to League City police.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/11065951/site/newsweek/

A Parent's guide to internet safety
http://www.fbi.gov/publications/pguide/pguidee.htm

the most beautiful wooman in God's world

u guys of alternative life styles must read dis Caraf Dances

demo crazy, the americans

The american congress sanctioned 42 b dollars for the spread of democracy ...

The americans took a trip to IRAQ to install democracy there
and to find and destroy WMD

they succeeded in killing IRAQI woomen and children and abusing their menfolk in prison
Now, the IRAQIS want the tyrant (?) Saddam back

Democray only worked in Athens a long time ago

read here http://www.historyforkids.org/learn/government/democracy.htm


Democracy dont work in India too
the Lok Sabha are elected guys

elected by muscle power and money power
they formed a govt by forming alliances

all idealogy was thrown to the winds
BJP claimed to be idealogists but formed the NDA govt some time back to oust the Congress

Now the Congress is in power and welcomed RANE and Sena dissidents


The non elected guys are in the Rajya Sabha
the decent guys
but these guys dont have too much power

the only party which wont compromise on idealogy is the Communist Party of India

Salman khan, the (lousy) actor is sentenced to one year imprisonment for killing deer in India

He killed 3 poor children sleeping on the footpath driving a car in a drunken state but was not convicted. In any muslim court in the Gulf, he wud have been executed publicly

-democrazy at work in India

American Presidents, Catlik priests and married guys

its a tuff life for American Presidents, Catlik priests and married guys

CLINTON was hauled up for oral
NIXON for eavesdropping
(while BUSH says he does it all the time to keep America safe)

BUSH has to disbelieve in DARWIN's theory of creation
the moral right voted him to power
and also believe dat gays dont have the right to marry or to hold public office


CATLIK priests have to remain celibate till they die
or are defrocked

MARRIED GUYS have to remain faithful till death do dem part
No matter if they have the 7 year itch evry 3 years



http://nobravery.cf.huffingtonpost.com/
i gott dis from the Pink Lady

women for women

And You Thought You Were the Only One!














Jane Addams is a Nobel Peace Prize winner and founder of Hull House.
Christina Aguilera says she loves kissing women.

Tammy Baldwin from Wisconsin, is the first out lesbian Congresswoman.

Drew Barrymore recently said, "Do I like women sexually? Yeah, I do."

Jennifer Beals plays Bette Porter on The L Word.
Catie Curtis is a singer/songwriter who has been out her whole career.

Ellen DeGeneres came out shortly after the character she played on TV did in 1996. She now stars in her own daily talk show.

Portia de Rossi stars in Fox TV's Arrested Development and is dating Ellen DeGeneres.
Marlene Dietrich: This 1920s film star, famous for cross-dressing, had an affair with writer Mercedes deAcosta.

Ani DiFranco: This bisexual rocker is one of the most successful artists on an indepedent label.
Melissa Etheridge: Grammy winner Melissa came out at the 1993 Presidential Inauguration.

Melissa Ferrick is an out lesbian rocker.
Gina Gershon: She has played a lesbian plenty of times in her film and television roles. But, is Gina Gershon a lesbian?

Sara Gilbert played Darlene on Rosanne from 1988 to 1997.
Missy Giove: Missy, the Missle, World Champion and World Cup winner is one of the fastest female downhill mountain bike racers in the world.

Leisha Hailey: Leisha was a member of the rock duo, The Murmurs, dated kd lang and now stars in The L Word on Showtime.
Sophie B. Hawkins came out as omnisexual and was nominated for a Grammy in 1992 for Damn, Wish I was your Lover.

Janis Ian: Winner of two Grammy awards, Janis released her first album at age 15.
Indigo Girls: Amy Ray and Emily Saliers make up this out, politically active folk/rock duo.

Angelina Jolie is an out and proud bisexual actress.
Rosie Jones: Winner of 13 LPGA golf titles, Jones came out in March of 2004 to accept a sponsorship from a lesbian travel company.

Janis Joplin: Although Janis Joplin did not self-identify as bisexual, she did have relationships with both men and women.
Barbara Jordan: achieved many firsts for African Americans and women.
Frida Kahlo: One of the most famous painters of our time, both she and her husband Diego Rivera were said to have affairs with both men and women.

kd lang: Grammy winner kd began her career in country music and caused more of a stir coming out as a vegetarian than as a lesbian.
Lucy Liu: The Charlie's Angels star admits to kissing women.

Karina Lombard: Plays Marina on The 'L' Word.
Audre Lorde: The self-described Black lesbian mother, warrior, poet wrote poetry and Zami: A New Spelling of My Name.

Phyllis Lyon: Author of Lesbian/Woman was the first same-sex person legally married in the United States.
Del Martin: A lesbian activist since the 1950s, Del Martin married her partner of more than 50 years on February 12, 2004.

Heather Matarazzo: starred in the Princess Diaries movies and numerous TV shows.
Amelie Mauresmo is one of the top tennis players in the world.

Tammy Lynn Michaels: Michaels played the bitchy Nicole Julian on WB's drama Popular and has a role in the lesbian series The L Word. Perhaps she is best known for her marriage to Rocker Melissa Etheridge.
Katherine "Kate" Moennig plays heart-throb Shane on The L Word.

Tyria Moore was lover's with serial killer Aileen Wuornos and was portrayed by Christina Ricci in the movie Monster.
Martina Navratilova: This Czechoslovakian born American tennis player won more singles titles than any other player in history, male or female.

Me'Shell NdegeOcello: This out bisexual bass player extraordinaire has four albums to her credit and a hit record with John Mellencamp.
Cynthia Nixon played Miranda on Sex in the City.

Rosie O'Donnell: The talk show host came out, in part to help fight for the rights of gay and lesbian parents.
Ma Rainey was known as the Mother of the Blues and did not hide her preference for women in her songs in the 1920s.

Amy Ray is a lesbian rocker and part of the musical duo, The Indigo Girls.
Eleanor Roosevelt: Former First Lady and wife of Franklin D. Roosevelt had a long-term relationship with another woman.

Vita Sackville-West:English poet and novelist.
Sappho: A Greek poet from the Isle of Lesbos, Sappho penned love sonnets to women. She lived from 610-580 B.C.

Sarah Shahi plays Carmen on The L Word.
Sheryl Swoopes is a three-time MVP of the WNBA and Olympic Gold medalist in basketball.

Suzanne Westenhoefer was the first out lesbian to appear on David Letterman, have her own HBO special and to appear on Comedy Central.
Sue Wicks: The former WNBA player for the New York Liberty retired in 2003.

Cris Williamson is a pioneer for lesbians in music.
Aileen Wuornos: Executed in 2002, Wuornos was known as the "Lesbian Serial Killer."

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Love conquers all
all prejudices too

if u love somebody
shout it from the rooftops

my best friends are lesbians

for the women

mmm

MAD

I've often wondered how some people in positions of this kind ... manage without having had any acting experience.
-Ronald Wilson Reagan (b. 1911)

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the new upstart, the middle finger to Bill Gates

knowledge is power

when u want knowledge
u need an engine to search for knowledge


GOOGLE RULES the world
Microsoft is no more so powerful as GOOGLE

Wat to buy?
Where to buy from?
GOOGLE tells all

http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/business/1700AP_India_Tibet_Google.html

birthday today

handy for u guys on valentines day
http://www.1funny.com/sayiloveu.shtml

Countdown To the Cheesemeister's 41st BirthdayWednesday February 15, 2006
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I was realizing what BIG BUSINESS Valentine's Day must be, I started wondering...

Where the heck did Valentine's Day come from? So, I decided to do a little research. Well, as it turns out, there are severaldifferent stories about the origin of Valentine'sDay. But one of them is by far the most common. Wanna hear it? Here it goes... So, back in about the year 270 A.D. or so,there was a priest named, you guessed it,Valentine. Some versions of the story said that hewas a Bishop. Either way... In those days the Emperor needed men for hisarmy and he decided that it wasn't good to havemen marrying up with women... because then the menwould be more attached to their families than thearmy. So, the Emperor OUTLAWED marriage. Yep, he said, "It's illegal to get married". Those were the days, huh? OK, so Priest and/or Bishop Valentine decidedthat he was going to help young lovers out bymarrying them in SECRET. Well, the Emperor got wind of this business,and put a stop to it in a "New York Minute". So, here's Priest/Bishop Valentine sittingalone in prison and who comes along? The super-babe, young daughter of the jail owner'sdaughter... and, of course, he falls in love withher. One version of the story I read said that shewas blind and he healed her of her blindness. In any event, right before his execution (yeah,they killed him for performing marriages), hewrote a letter to this girl he was in love withand at the end signed it "From Your Valentine". And then he was executed. OK...

Fast forward several centuries, and noweveryone is out buying heart-shaped cards,chocolate, and long-stemmed red roses for womenwho have come to expect them. Gotta love it! Aside from me wanting to know what the HECK aCatholic Priest was doing falling in love with ayoungster way back in the year 270 (Over 1,700years before this kind of thing was fashionable),I want to know how this turned into men chasingwomen around with gifts in the year 2006! I get it, I get it. It's nice to have a day outof the year to celebrate your love for thatspecial someone in your life. Very cute. And if you're reading this right now and you'remarried... or you've had a girlfriend for a yearor two... then by all means, get her some flowersand chocolate... and one of those cute pink cards. But what about the REST of us? Well, here's a little gem of wisdom from one ofmy all time favorite books, "The Rules". Yeah, thebook that teaches women how to manipulate men intomarrying them...

Here's it is: "RULE 12: Stop dating him if he doesn't buy you
a romantic gift for your birthday or Valentine'sDay." Nope, I'm not kidding. By the way, a whole CHAPTER is dedicated tothis rule in the book. In the chapter, it basically says that if a mandoesn't buy you jewelry (or some other romanticgift) for one of these holidays, then you shoulddump him, because he's not going to buy you the"big gift" of an engagement ring. Now, before I present my radical extremistopposing perspective, I must first give you thedisclaimer... I think that long-term relationships are great,and if you're one of the lucky guys on this planetwho has found a really exceptional woman, thenmore power to you, and I hope she likes theromantic gifts that you got her. Really. But, for all the rest of us single guys (orguys who have just started dating a woman), Ithink that Valentine's Day can be kind of a drag. Why? Because there's another, more "subtle" messagethat this whole event communicates: The way to wina woman's heart is to buy her flowers, gifts, andjewelry... and to confess your feelings for her.And if she still doesn't like you, then youprobably didn't get her enough gifts, or say theright things in the card. While this idea of giving romantic gifts toshow your love might be wonderful and healthy forLONGER-TERM relationships, it's usually a HORRIBLE concept for guys to use with women that they havejust met, or who they've only dated a few times. Even worse, for guys who don't have the skills to meet women and get dates, it's downright DEPRESSING. I think that the Valentine's Day section of allstores should have a sign that says "No one whohas been in a relationship less than 6-12 months allowed". Why's that? Because, if you "Go Valentine's Day" on a girl that doesn't know you very well (especially anunusually attractive one), you'll probably only betalking to her for another week or two. Here's the problem... MOST of the things that us guys have been brought up believing about how to "pursue" womenis WRONG. IT DOESN'T WORK. Your mom loved you, but all that stuff she taught you about how to be a nice, respectable,ass-kissing Wuss Bag was waaaaaaayyyy off the mark. See, the period from when you first meet a woman, up until the first 10 dates or so, is VERY different from ALL OTHER TIMES IN YOUR LIFE. All of the rules you've learned about how tobehave, how to be "nice", how to "make friends",how to treat people with kindness, etc., are USELESS here. And EVEN WORSE, all the things you've learned about how to pursue women with gifts, food, andcompliments will BACKFIRE on you big time if youuse them here. THIS PART OF THE GAME IS DIFFERENT. And events like Valentine's Day, no matter how well-meaning they might be intended, definitely program us single guys with the WRONG way tobehave around women we're attracted to (but not ina long-term relationship with).

So, what's the answer? What should we be doing on Valentine's Day? And how should we be feeling? Well, here's a little self-tester and self-helpquiz for you. If the statement and question applies to you, then do what comes after it...

1) "I just met this girl and I really like her.Should I go out and buy her something really nice for Valentine's Day?" >>> If you just met her, then you should probably hold back... no big gifts. If you get a big,romantic gift for her, you're going to give her the idea that you're VERY into her. At this point,most women go into "play hard to get" mode, and become more and more difficult. If you really likeher, do the things that have worked to attract her... don't turn into a needy Wuss who seems likehe's trying to buy her love and approval.

2) "I'm afraid that if I don't buy my girl something really nice for Valentine's Day, she'llleave me. What should I do?" >>> The quack psychologist inside of me has a message for you: If you're insecure about your relationship with a woman to the point that you believe you have to BUY her attention, then HIT THE ROAD. If you're dating a woman who isinterested in you for ANYTHING other than the feeling she gets from being with you... then you're in big trouble, and you don't even realize it. Down the road, she's going to be your worst nightmare. Trust me.

3) "I'm single and lonely. What can I do to getover this feeling of loneliness?" >>> The BEST thing you can do is get out there and meet some women! Duh! I was just chatting with a couple of different friends of mine who are both GREAT with women.They're both single guys who meet women anytimethey want. As it turns out, both of these guys had to LEARN these skills. They started out having almost ZERO success with women. We were talking about Valentine's Day, and how most guys run around chasing after women... buying them things... and generally acting needy with women that they hardly know... hoping to get some love and approval. Here are a couple more things that both of these guys have in common:1) They both have TONS of women calling them allthe time.

2) They both avoid buying a Valentine's Day gift for ANY of the women they're seeing. Their perspectives (and mine, as well) are that if you know how to meet women anytime you want,and women are attracted to you because of the FEELINGS that they get when they're with you (as opposed to the thing you buy them), then YOU get to make the rules. My point is that if you are lonely and you're feeling bad about all this Valentine's Day business, then get up and DO something about it. Get some skills. Meet some women. Be the guy who GETS Valentine's Day gifts...instead of the guy who GIVES them. You watch. Mark my words, next week or the week after, inone of these newsletters, you're going to see stories from guys who had women buying them all kinds of fancy things for Valentine's Day. And then the guy will mention that he got gifts from two or three other women as well. I can remember when I used to think that I had to buy women jewelry, flowers, and gifts to get their love and approval and affection. I did that for years. And it never worked very well. Well, after spending several YEARS studying the secrets that "naturals" use to attract women, I can see WHY it never worked very well. If you want to be one of the guys who GETS all the gifts on Valentine's Day... and who has his phone ringing off the hook from women calling HIM,then I recommend you check out my eBook and my Advanced Dating Techniques program. Inside, I'll teach you all of the steps toturning the odds in your favor... and how to meet the kinds of women that you've always wanted. Valentine's Day is a pain for a lot of guys.But it doesn't HAVE to be that way. Take some action and take things into your own hands.

My eBook is here:http://www.DoubleYourDatingResources.com/e/10020/eBook/My Advanced Dating Techniques Program is here:http://www.DoubleYourDatingResources.com/e/10020/AdvancedSeries/ I'll talk to you again in a couple of days.
Your Friend,
David D.

The hermit

Once again, I find myself wanting to retreat from the world.
It seems all I can do is barely take care of myself. I want to keep up with everyone, but I just can't. I don't know if this is blogger burnout or just my need for space sometimes.

I have been working on editing of my blog some. Removing spam comments, fixing some old posts that I moved over here and didn't know how to change the type size from small to normal, etc. So, you may see some changes to the blog.

But I seem unable to reach out right now. I don't know why. I just can't do it. I feel like it's going to take all my strength to go to the grocery store tonight and take a shower.

So, once again.... I retreat into myself. I guess I need to be here for me right now. It feels so selfish, but I can't be there for everyone all the time. It's not possible. I have comments out the wazoo from people and I can't keep up. I get further and further behind and feel guilty.

But know that I care about each of you. I just need to be with me right now. It's what I do. Turn inwards when I can't handle the outside world.

But I will eventually emerge. I always do. I've just been through so much crap with the med changes lately and then the sinus infection. I need some time to gather myself, my thoughts, my wishes and dreams.

I may post, I may not. I don't know. I'm not going to set any expectations. I'm going to follow my own feelings and do what I need to do for me. I wish everyone the best and I hope to be back to my "normal" self soon. Take care all!!!
posted by Babs at 2/13/2006 07:29:00 PM 9 comments links to this post

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Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything

I am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything
I am Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way

Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared

Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin?
forIt’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin? but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin? but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way

Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.


dis for my annony mouse friendz, WATCH YOUR ASS !http://imnutsincapsquotes.blogspot.com/2006/02/good-old-aesop.html

sweet caroline by Neil Diamond

Where it began, I can't begin to know when
But then I know it's growing strong

Oh, wasn't the spring, whooo
And spring became the summer
Who'd believe you'd come along

Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you

Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I've been inclined to believe it never would

And now I, I look at the night, whooo
And it don't seem so lonely

We fill it up with only two, oh
And when I hurt

Hurting runs off my shoulder
How can I hurt when holding you

Oh, one, touching one, reaching out
Touching me, touching you

Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
Oh I've been inclined to believe it never would


Ohhh, sweet Caroline, good times never seem so good

i gotta move on

I had nothing to say and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me (i was confused) and i live it all out to find,

but im not the only person wit these things in mind (inside of me) but all that they can see the words revealed is the only real thing that i got left to feel (nothing to lose)

just stuck hollow and alone and the fault is my own

i wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real i wanna let go of the pain ive felt so long. erase all the pain til its gone i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real.

i wanna find something ive wanted all along somewhere i belong and i got nothing to say. i cant believe i didnt fall right down on my face (i was confused) look at everywhere only to find. it is not the way i had imagined it all in my mind. (so what am i)

what do i have but negativity cuz i cant trust no one by the way everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose) nothing to gain im hollow and alone and the fault is my own

and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until i do this on my own cuz i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed i will never be anything til i break away from me

i will break away.

ill find myself today
ill find myself today
ill find myself today


dis lyric i gott from Rhiannon

Linkin Park - In The End Lyrics
Linkin Park - Numb Lyrics
Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit Lyrics
Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong Lyrics
Linkin Park - My December Lyrics
Linkin Park - Faint Lyrics
Linkin Park - One Step Closer Lyrics
Linkin Park - Papercut Lyrics
Linkin Park - A Place For My Head Lyrics
Linkin Park - Runaway Lyrics
Linkin Park - From The Inside Lyrics
Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away Lyrics
Linkin Park - Crawling Lyrics
Linkin Park - Easier To Run Lyrics
Linkin Park - Forgotten Lyrics
Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening Lyrics
Linkin Park - By Myself Lyrics
Linkin Park - Hit The Floor Lyrics
Linkin Park - Lying From You Lyrics
Linkin Park - Don't Stay Lyrics

kaho na pyar hai

dis will come in handy for u guys on valentines day
http://www.1funny.com/sayiloveu.shtml

Countdown To the Cheesemeister's 41st Birthday
Wednesday February 15, 2006
http://bmah.blogspot.com/


before dat
Oh Jesus
it is Jesus antonio 's birthday Feb 12 Sunday

Annony mouse ?- HA! tink again

There are several jokes and cartoons out there that play on the idea of the "anonymous" Web, an Internet where you can be whatever and whomever you want. Most mainstream computer users willingly buy into this concept, deceived by the ability to adopt cryptic usernames and email addresses.

Anonymous Internet usage is an appealing concept to many people, but whether it's actually possible is a different matter. Generally speaking, it's relatively simple to intercept — and at the least, monitor — the transmission of digital information.

Every time you transmit data from a computer to or from somewhere else using the Internet, literally dozens of places can exist that are monitoring the transmission. Clear-text protocols offer no built-in protection from eavesdropping. In addition, the transmission leaves traces of "evidence" on your computer — regardless of if you use data encryption or one of those software "evidence eliminator" packages.

An anonymous Internet, if such a thing existed, would be immune to eavesdropping entirely, and it would have no record of a communication ever existing.

Anonymous Internet usage is like a "cash" form of communication: it would leave no traceable evidence. In certain countries, the government restricts and/or controls Internet use.

For example, China has one of the most extensive Web proxy server and monitoring capabilities in the world, aptly dubbed the Great Firewall of China.

The Chinese government controls, monitors, and censors Internet access at will. Dissidents and those opposed to the Chinese government, including other governments, constantly try to bypass the censors, but the Great Firewall soon discovers and blocks these noncensored "anonymous" proxy servers.

So it's understandable why some people see the benefits in leaving no traces of any communication, especially when there's a fear of reprisal from a government or other organisations. It would be as if the transmission never happened. There's no record of it ever occurring, and therefore it doesn't exist.

But, however appealing this concept may be to some, the fact remains that it isn't realistic. Companies and individuals alike need to be aware that there really is no such thing as anonymous Internet usage. If someone wants to determine what a computer is doing on the Internet, there's always a trail to follow.

Computer users leave traces of information with almost every data transmission. In fact, an entire subindustry has evolved to deal with removing these traces of information, but these companies can only remove what's on a computer. There are so many other points that can record the digital footprints of Internet activity that it's impossible to completely guarantee anonymity.

Whether anonymous Internet usage will ever exist is not important. What is important is that companies become aware that Internet activity is easy to monitor from a variety of locations, even when data encryption is in use.

http://insight.zdnet.co.uk/internet/0,39020451,39251060,00.htm

the clash of civilizations ?

the Muslims are enraged with the prophet cartoons by the Danes
they hit back not wid Jesus and Mary Magdalene caricatures

but with Holocaust cartoons
i wonder why ?

http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/FCE073DD-7F1B-4714-95F0-DD1F354F1D9A.htm

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060209/ap_on_re_mi_ea/prophet_drawings

where have all the good times gone?

ever since janice stopped posting
i am not in the mood

i met sunny recently
he cried too

we sat in a bar reminiscening
and the pretzels turned soggy


W T F !
i am down but not out
http://nanasbutterflies.blogspot.com/2006/02/when-bingo-is-exciting-saturday-night.html#comments

"a woman who worked to make our nation whole."

By ERRIN HAINES, Associated Press Writer

LITHONIA, Ga. - Ten thousand mourners — including four U.S. presidents, numerous members of Congress and many gray-haired veterans of the civil rights movement — said goodbye to Coretta Scott King on Tuesday, with
President Bush President Bush saluting her as "a woman who worked to make our nation whole."

The immense crowd filled the New Birth Missionary Baptist Church — a modern, arena-style megachurch in a suburban Atlanta county that was once a stronghold of the Ku Klux Klan but today has one of the most affluent black populations in the country.

More than three dozen speakers at the funeral took turns remembering the widow of the Rev. Martin Luther King Jr., who worked to realize her husband's dream of equality for nearly 40 years after his assassination. She died Jan. 30 at age 78 after battling ovarian cancer and the effects of a stroke.

The president ordered flags flown at half-staff across the country.
"Coretta Scott King not only secured her husband's legacy, she built her own," Bush told the crowd. "Having loved a leader, she became a leader, and when she spoke, Americans listened closely."

Former President Clinton urged mourners to follow in her footsteps, honor her husband's sacrifice and help the couple's children fulfill their parents' legacy. Former President Bush said the "world is a kinder and gentler place because of Coretta Scott King." President Carter praised the Kings for their ability to "wage a fierce struggle for freedom and justice and to do it peacefully."

The Rev. Joseph Lowery, who co-founded the Southern Christian Leadership Conference with Martin Luther King Jr., drew a roaring standing ovation when he said: "For war, billions more, but no more for the poor" — a takeoff on a line from a Stevie Wonder song. The comment drew head shakes from Bush and his father as they sat behind the pulpit.

The lavish service stood in sharp contrast to the 1968 funeral for King's husband. President Lyndon B. Johnson did not attend those services, which were held in the much smaller and older Ebenezer Church in Atlanta, where King had preached.

Coretta Scott King's body was to be placed in a crypt near her husband's tomb at the King Center, which she built to promote his memory. The crypt is inscribed with a passage from First Corinthians: "And now abide Faith, Hope, Love, These Three; but the greatest of these is Love."

Over the past several days, more than 160,000 mourners waited in long lines to pay their respects and file past King's open casket during viewings at churches and the Georgia Capitol, where King became the first woman and the first black person to lie in honor.

"She made many great sacrifices," said Sean Washington, 38, who drove from Tampa, Fla., with his wife and children from a disability center to attend the funeral. "To be in her presence once more is something that I would definitely cherish, no matter what."
Stevie Wonder and Michael Bolton sang, giving soaring, gospel-infused performances. At least 14 U.S. senators attended, along with members of the House.

Among the civil rights veterans at the funeral were Dorothy Height, longtime chairwoman of the National Council of Negro Women; Rep. John Lewis (news, bio, voting record), former head of the Student Nonviolent Coordinating Committee who led the "Bloody Sunday" march in Selma, Ala.; and the Rev. Jesse Jackson' , founder of the Rainbow/PUSH Coalition.

The youngest of the Kings' four children, Bernice, delivered remarks that were part fiery sermon and part eulogy. She was 5 when her father was assassinated, and was famously photographed lying in her mother's lap during her father's funeral.

Bernice King, a minister at the megachurch, yelled at times as she preached against violence and materialism, saying that her mother's purpose in life was to spread her father's message of peace and unconditional love.

"Thank you, mother, for your incredible example of Christ-like love and obedience," she said.

Poet Maya Angelou called Coretta Scott King "a study in serenity" and challenged the audience to carry on the King message of nonviolence.
"We owe something from this minute on, so that this gathering is not just another footnote on the pages of history," said Angelou, a former U.S. poet laureate who sang some of her comments in a traditional style of the Southern black church.

Atlanta Mayor Shirley Franklin — who spoke immediately after the president — injected politics into her remarks, describing how Coretta Scott King spoke out against "the senselessness of war" with a voice that was heard "from the tintop roofs of Soweto to the bomb shelters of Baghdad."

Carter brought up the government response to Katrina, saying, "We only have to recall the color of the faces of those in Louisiana, Alabama and Mississippi" to know that inequality exists. He also noted that the Kings once were "victims of secret government wiretapping" — echoing Bush's domestic spying program.

Outside the church, the lines to get into the funeral and to attend the final viewing of King's body started forming before 3 a.m.

"It's good to finally see her at peace," said Robert Jackson, a 34-year-old financial consultant from Atlanta whose 10-year-old daughter, Ebony, persuaded him to take her to the church.
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Associated Press Writer Nedra Pickler contributed to this report.
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erotica from the bible

How beautiful are thy feet with shoes, O prince's daughter!
the joints of thy thighs are like jewels,
the work of the hands of a cunning workman.

Thy navel is like a round goblet, which wanteth not liquor: thy belly is like an heap of wheat set about with lilies.
Thy two breasts are like two young roes that are twins.
Thy neck is as a tower of ivory; thine eyes like the fishpools in Heshbon, by the gate of Bathrabbim: thy nose is as the tower of Lebanon which looketh toward Damascus.
Thine head upon thee is like Carmel, and the hair of thine head like purple; the king is held in the galleries.
How fair and how pleasant art thou, O love, for delights!
This thy stature is like to a palm tree, and thy breasts to clusters of grapes.
I said, I will go up to the palm tree, I will take hold of the boughs thereof: now also thy breasts shall be as clusters of the vine, and the smell of thy nose like apples;
And the roof of thy mouth like the best wine for my beloved, that goeth down sweetly, causing the lips of those that are asleep to speak.
I am my beloved's, and his desire is toward me.
Come, my beloved, let us go forth into the field; let us lodge in the villages.
Let us get up early to the vineyards; let us see if the vine flourish, whether the tender grape appear, and the pomegranates bud forth: there will I give thee my loves.
The mandrakes give a smell, and at our gates are all manner of pleasant fruits, new and old, which I have laid up for thee, O my beloved.

http://www.fourmilab.ch/etexts/www/Bible/Song_of_Solomon.html

her ample breast jumping up and down in amusement or need for attention.,

the subject line i gott from De Vile http://bluenyle.blogspot.com/

De Vile will make a good erotica riter
some more erotica read on ...



Driving home after a long day of hard work, John contemplated the reception he would get from his wife Sadie.

Things between them had not been so good recently. John had been working long hours and the kids had taken their toll on Sadie. They had not had time for each other and things had reached breaking point.

They both still loved each other but living together in these circumstances was a trial.The kids were spending the weekend with their grandparents and this was the last ditch attempt to patch things up and avoid a break up neither really wanted.

However, when he had left in the morning, the send off was frosty to say the least, so John did not know what to expect when he got home – or even if the planned meal out together was still on. Sadie may have already packed and gone.

As he drove into the drive, John had all these thoughts racing through his mind. Opening the front door, he hoped to be greeted by his wife, dressed and ready to go on their meal. Stepping inside, it was apparent that Sadie was nowhere to be seen.

John was concerned and hoped she was upstairs putting the finishing touches to her make up, or something similar. He mounted the stairs and listened for the sound of his wife moving about. Nothing. Was she in the house or had she left him? The bedroom door was slightly ajar and normally this would be shut.

Phew! I expect she is getting ready, he thought and hoped. Quietly he made his way to the bedroom and peeped in without pushing the door.There was Sadie, standing in front of the full-mirrored wardrobes. What a sight he thought! She is wearing the white blouse that makes her look so sexy and the short black leather skirt that shows the curves of her bottom.

Black hold up stockings and black high-heeled shoes completed the ensemble.There was a stirring in his trousers and John wanted to jump her already! Just then, he noticed something he had never seen before. Sadie was not applying make up, she was looking at herself in a very provocative way, in the full-length mirror.

Suddenly, she raised her hands and cupped her breasts, stroking them and squeezing them through the silky material of the blouse. He could see the reflection of two nipples now standing very erect through the blouse. Sadie turned sideways to check the view and murmured something to herself.

She continued to stroke her breasts through the blouse and then undid a button, which released her ample breasts from the hold of the blouse. In went a hand and Sadie was now stroking the flesh of her breast and obviously enjoying it and the nipple squeeze she applied. The murmur turned to a moan as she explored her chest. John was totally taken in by the show and the hardness of his cock was pushing on the zip holding his trousers together.Sadie then lay down on the bed in front of the mirror. Her knees up and legs parted. Her hand was now feeling all round the outside of the sheer black thong she was wearing. She stroked her inner thighs and ran her fingers over and over the front of the thong. Moaning with pleasure as she did so. John could see that her wetness in the reflection presented to him by the mirror. In a moment he had removed his lower clothing and was standing with a huge cock in his hand, enjoying this new view of his wife pleasuring herself.Sadie continued to stroke herself and was becoming very excited by the whole process. John had worked himself up too and wanted to get inside his wife and right now. He entered the bedroom, cock in hand. Sadie came out of her far away daydream and looked him in the eye. “I didn’t know you were home. How much have you seen?” She asked unapologetically. “I’ve seen it all and I want to enter you now to complete the moment.” John was almost at the bed and preparing to mount his wife after such a long time without the experience. “Stop there. Sadie was very firm. You are not having me now. Stand there. Watch….and wank!With that, Sadie unfastened another blouse button and as the blouse gaped further open, it unleashed a heaving breast and stout nipple right in front of John’s eyes. “Feast on that.” Sadie was very much in charge. Then, for the first time, as her hand went to the thong, instead of stroking the outside, it disappeared inside and John could see that a large part was inside the enormous love chamber that he so wanted to be in himself. Sadie began the rubbing and thrusting that was obviously bringing her closer to a climax. The other hand was roughly rubbing her blouse and breasts. Faster and faster her activity became.

“Wank, you bastard, wank.” The order was pretty clear and John was straight into action as he watched his wife writhing in ecstasy in front of him. In a flash Sadie screamed out loudly “I’m coming, I’m coming. Fuck me I needed this, I am so fucking frustrated and yet so sexy. I deserve it.”John was open mouthed and this was all too much for him as well. Simultaneously, the screams of delight echoing round the room from his wife, triggered his own orgasm and he shot a steam of “cum” into the air. “I’m coming too.” He groaned as he watched his wife in the throes of her ecstasy. Sadie looked back to see the shot of cum and this seemed to encourage her own orgasm to new heights. “I am sooo fucking sexy, I am coming like a train.” She screamed to the world. John could now only look on, as his wife cavorted in front of him – as sexy and erotic as he had ever seen her. God, I want you Sadie.” John could not keep it to himself.

“Goooood. That’s what I want too.” Sadie squealed as her orgasm went through its last gasps.Finally, as silence and calm resumed, Sadie sat on the side of the bed with John beside her. “I don’t know what came over me but it was really a wonderful experience.” “You looked so sexy when I first saw you and I just couldn’t take my eyes off you.” John was quick to respond. “Then the show – wow!”

I have never seen you like this. How come you suddenly started the breast stroke!”Sadie looked John straight in the eye as she was buttoning her blouse. “To be honest, it was a new experience for me and totally unplanned. I really wanted tonight to work and thought I would dress up for you. I know you love me in my white blouse and leather skirt and I wanted to turn you on to me again after all the recent hassle we’ve been having. Anyway, when I got my clothes out, I took the hold-ups out of the drawer and was rummaging for my underwear. I found out the sheer thong and put it on – I like that around my pussy. Then I was looking out a bra when I thought I would be daring for once. You are always going on about me leaving off my bra and wearing the blouse. Well I have never had enough courage – you can see my dark nipples through it and that is not really me as you know. But I so wanted to get you hard that I put on the skirt and blouse to see what it looked and felt like. If I was too self conscious then I would wear a bra or camisole underneath.Then the trouble started. I was looking at myself in the mirror and imagining myself in the restaurant like this with all the men ogling my tits through the blouse. I was going to take it off and then began to sense the touch of the silky blouse material on my nipples and breasts. It felt really good and I looked again in the mirror and saw that my nipples were erect and pushing through the material. They were really prominent. Instead of wanting to hide them under a bra or something, I just wanted them to be seen. The bigger and more erect the nipples the better I thought.

I felt sooo sexy and good about myself. I just wanted to touch them and arouse them and me even more. Of course, once I was thinking like that I flooded the thong. That felt good too. It was really great to be so stimulated that I was oozing my juices into my thong. I could visualize myself being admired as a sexy woman again – I haven’t felt like that for so long. I think you saw the rest. I couldn’t get enough of myself.”

John was opened mouthed at this new insight into his normally demure wife. “I thought you were fabulous too. When I saw you staring into the mirror, I wondered what was going on. Then the stroking and the rest just blew my mind.” “…and your cock!” “Yes.” Said John sheepishly. But why wouldn’t you let me touch you?”

Sadie looked straight back at him. “Because you had not earned the right. I want tonight to be successful for us together. Not just a quickie when you come home. We need to talk and sort ourselves out. What you did show me was that I still turn you on big time. It turned me on to have you wank in front of me – just because you thought I was a real sex bomb again.”

John had to agree that the experience was a good one. “But V. that means you will change to go out now. I don’t get the benefit of the outfit anymore!” He was laughing as he said it. Right now she could wear an overall and he would be into her.“Don’t you believe it. The blouse is still good. All I need is to press it and it will be fine.

As for the thong – I am keeping it on! It feels so wet and soaked by my juices. I want to feel like that all evening. So it stays on – for now!”

John could not believe that this was his oh so shy wife talking. In a moment she had passed him and went off to iron the blouse. He followed her out of the bedroom and was soon hard again as she peeled it off to iron. Her ample breasts staring right back at him. “Don’t touch me.” Sadie was firm. “When I am dressed and ready you can kiss me.”As she slipped the blouse on and buttoned it – just enough and still showing her cleavage, John went hard once more.

Sadie moved over too him and kissed him provocatively, grabbing his cock in her hand as she did and squeezing hard. John went straight for a breast and stroked and squeezed encouragingly. The nipple responded as expected. “That’s enough for now. We both know what is on offer if we get this right. So let’s do it.”

John nodded and the two left the house to drive to the restaurant. Both hoping for the outcome they desired.

MORAL of the story:
a little porn is good for the soul